Kya kahee...!

Baithe baithe yaad aayi tumhari, man kiya thoda likh bhi duu tumhare baare mein... Lekin darr hai mujhe, kahii tumhare liye shabdhon ki kami naa pad jaaye...!
Ghar ke aage ki khidkiyon se aksar dekha karti thi mei tumhe, magar pata nahi tha ki tum bhi kabhi kabhi dekha kiya karte the mujhe, khush hoo jaati thi mei bas aise hii... 
Aaj kal, un khidkiyon se tumhe dekhne ke liye naa mei moujood rehti huu, mere liye nazaara bankar naa tum rehte ho... Lekin ab joo un khidkiyon ke paas mei baithi huu, baahar dekhte hue, hawaayein tumhari yaad dila rahi hai mujhe, par sirf tumhari hi toh kami hai...!

Pehle toh hum dono aksar mila karte the, ek dusre ko dekhte hi sharma jaate the... Mei toh tumhe dekhte hi muskuraane lagti thi, kyonki tumhare aane ka pata mujhe pehle se hi hua karta tha, mat poocho kaise, kyunki uss raaz se mei bhi anjaan huu...! 
Kabhi kabhi yeh paagal dil yeh bhi socha karta tha ki shaayad tum mujhse milne hi aaya karte the... Lagta hai tumhe yaad nahi hoga, magar mujhe sab kuch yaad hai, aur rahega bhi...!
Mere liye tum sabse alag the, afsoos ki baat yeh hai ki mujhe naa pata tha ki tum bhi ek maamuli insaan hoo, sab ke jaise hi... Tumhare liye mera pyaar hi ek aisa cheez tha jo tumhe sabse khaas banaaya karta tha...!

Yeh baat toh sach hai ki behad mohobbat karti thi mei tumse, par aage se nahi kar paaungi shaayad...!!!
Bohot sapne dekhe the meine tumhare saath hone kaa, par kya faayda... Haath thaamne ke liye tum hi mere saath nahi rahe...!
Socha tha ki tum meri zindagi hoo, magar tum toh mujhe zindagi ka sabse bada paath padhaa kar chale...!
Ab pehle jaisa kuch nahi rahaa, is paagal dil ko hum kaise samjhaaye...? Ab jo tum nahi rahe meri zindagi mein, tumse judi inn choti choti yaadon ko hum kaise bhulaayein...? Tum hi bataaoo...


~PRN

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